Mistress Darkness

So I'm at the university, our lecturer just returned, and hopefully things will be quiter. Honestly students can be quite loud, when locked into a room.

Good news is, that I emailed those CineMaxx people and got assured that next week, The Dark Knight, will be shown at more sane times, maybe even in the afternoon (great like I want to see it with some dumb noisy kids).

I can't believe it, those assholes are showing the Dark Knight on Monday Night, at 22:20! Hello? Those assholes must be out of their minds ...

So apparantly I do have to wait for the DVD. Got this country is really top of the line in dumbing down people with their "OmG we do such great dubbs" *grrr*

P.S. Does anyone know where to download it? It's not that I do not want to pay for a ticket, it's just so happens that I can't go at the one time it is shown here ...

My mother can be such a self-righteous bitch, instead of cleaning up her own mess, she is constantly bothering me about mine. Sometimes she is so arrogant and dumb, I just could smack her in the face right on her stupid nose.

I love being untidy, it's a sign of being free from her tyranny. Of a woman who loves a tidy room more than her daughter.

Deep down, I'm sure of it, she hates me. She wanted this perfect child who was just like her a workaholic and whose principal pleasure in life was cleaning up or looking into the garbage bin. The fact that at this point of time, she could not have my father was another thing. So probably should add, the perfect kid from the guy she could not yet have.

When did things get worse between us? When my father decided to permanently leave his wife and move in with her. At that point I was just an inconvenience.

Too late, I'm here, and she raised me to be extraordinary untidy. I can't wait to have my own flat once again, so I can be as messy as I want. I probably won't be able to invite anyone over for a year, but I guess after some time, when I enjoyed the freedom of not having some nagging bitch up my ass, I'll eventually begin to keep things tidy.

It's not that I have a general aversion against a tidy room, but cleaning up has to be something I want to do, not have to. For now looking at the untidy mess I sometimes have lying around is connected with this deeply routed feeling of relief and comfort. Although of course if everything is okay, I feel also relief, as in "aka the bitch can't complain about this". In truth if she feels like doing a little bashing, she will anyway.

I need a "I'm anything my mother doesn't like" icon, after a certain very cool Helloween song!

Of course I barely managed to do do all the stuff I wanted to. Why? Because I had a horrible headache and slept all day ... oh well. I have to get up in about 5 hours to catch my train.

See you later, IJ ;)

Finally I managed to pay a visit to Tersha! We decided to rent to DVDs, one was Sweeney Todd, which I had looked forward to. However, I was more than midly disappointed. It was horror, the singing was awful, the songs were boring on top of that and apart from one funny moment that got me laughing (when it turned out that he killed his own wife) there was really nothing to it. (Okay, I kind of thought Johnny looked cute in the get up, but that was all)

The second shock was me reading parts of the first twilight novel - wow putting a couple of boring cliches in a book, add vampires and you got a bestseller. Not really encouraging, even my rough plans for my first vampire novel contained less bland characters and back then I was fifteen. But I guess, my feeling that my stories would anyway be too complicated to get published are very substanciated.

Oh well, maybe one of these day I give it a try. Maybe the fantasy story which is basically making fun of cliches and thus there are some cliche characters. Then again the idea is to set these two "wonderful heroes" up and then because they are so typcial and simple minded heroes, they fail miserably and the villains win, because they are not your typcial villains nice enough to just drop dead at the end.

At least the second movie was a bit better, although a bit gruesome, I'm not to fond of movies with serial killers who cut off body parts other than hair ...

Well first photos from the three roads leading away from our house

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Most pics did not turn out too well. My camera is not that rotten, I just never learnt how to make the most of it.

Anyway, the real disaster happened inside the house. As you know Mom was shopping with the large car. So instead of being grateful that she showed up unharmed, my "lovely" father bitched about how she left the car at the end of the village and walked on foot. Then he was pissed that the dog ran around him as he was outside checking and yelled at mom a bit more. Then when people called to asked what's up with the trees all over the village, my father got upset at her again. Then finally the firemen cut through a passage and the managed to get the car by driving through a friendly neighbours yard. Again, he yelled at her, as she wanted to take out the groceries. So he drove off with half of them still inside (Mom saved my Pepsi first, wasn't that nice of her?)
Anyway, after the mayor left the home, I showed her how our fruit bearing trees were damaged in the backyard, when my father returned and yelled some more for Mom's cell phone. As she went to get it, I asked him if it would be alright for me to use the waiting time to get at least the stuff for the fridge out. Then he agreed to put in the work shop, noticed that Mom had not brought him DVD-RWs, but DVD-Rs and yelled at her some more.
At least my uncle laughed at the crack I could not help myself making, about the fact that I am in no danger whatsoever to end up with someone my father. *sighs*

What an evening! Not to mention now I can't see Tersha on Saturday, damn, it's like some higher power constantly comes up with ways to spoil our plans.

We had a small thunderstorm, or should I say a short one, broke off several trees, we are completely cut off from the rest of the village, because all three roads are blocked by huge large trees (I made photos will add them later on)

Considering that nobody got hurt (at least that I know off) that would be a awesome spectacle of nature, but my mom is gone shopping and I'm a bit worried. She was probably safe inside familia or aldi, but as things are we won't find out till later tonight. I hope it will be sooner ...

I even shut of my computer for a while, as it already turned off by itself and my dsl box went all weird.

edit: Mom back, without a scratch more later (oh the home made drama!)

( Harry Potter Husband Test )

Why am I not surprised ..

... how I hate that song now, it should be more like, the summer sucks ...

Anyway, today we need to finish the paper and it's going slowly, but already did so a lot and hope that I don't have to write the last missing steps, too.

Got a birthday present today, a late gift that mom forgot to gave me, hmm 4 month ago ;) It's a cute little address book, with a birdthay register and other funny stuff.

I hope that despite the weather I get myself to do some of the following:

• Clean up the room a bit (just a bit)
  
• Make a few more icons
  
• Write a bit on any of my ongoing fanfics
  
• Work a bit more on fanlistings
  
• Collect a sample of my rabbit's droppings for the vet
  
• Eat something
  
• Add a few more DVDs to my mediashelf
  
• Maybe even work a tiny bit on Jamballa (which is still on hiatus)
  
• .....
  

So, I just got a letter from eventime, that Nightwish is going on tour in 2009 in five more cities here in Germany. The nearest location is Lingen and it is about 180 kilometers from my location ... oh boy I do wanna go. I asked my father if I could have the car should he not need it. He said yes, and that if not I could take the old car.

I do want to go - it's just such a long drive all by myself and it costs fuel and the ticket. And if I have to take the old car, i'll probably have to go hours before and need that much longer back, to get out and take breaks for my leg. Driving all the way to Hamburg was already painful. *sighs*

*grr* I want my Golf back! I feel so limited in my options ....

Sometimes I wonder if I ever get through building my media shelf ;) Not hat I have that much, but the scanning in takes time - I already stopped listing too many details, I leave that for later, when I write a review etc.

Tonight I did something closely connected, namely sorting through my self-made DVDs, where I recorded old tv recordings from ancient VHS. And then I tried to look them up on imdb.com, so I could get a feeling what was avaible so far and what not. Sadly some of those old classics do not seem to make it to DVD. Like a beautiful anime version of the Anderson fairtale about the sister with the brothers who have been turned into swans.

I made a new category for them on imdb.com called dubbed dvds, and put all my dubbed dvds in it (yeah who would have guessed). I also made resepctive author's to match my sorting systems, as I keep DVDs which I do not own in the original language seperate, as well as my German movies and TV Shows, from the English Originals. So there is for example, an author called DVD, East European Fairytales. This is for my collection of beautiful fairytales mostly made popular by the DEFA studios (some are in German, others in czech or russian, but of course only the DEFA dubbs have been released).
Sometimes deciding where to put what is rather difficult, for example, there is a movie called Avalon, which is a Polish/Japanese Co-Production ... I have to decide how to list them after checking out the imdb.com infos.

Of course I want to keep some of the dubbed versions. As much as I generally loathe German dubbing, the Bud Spencer / Terence Hill movies are truly brilliant gems. I doubt they have much in common with what was originally said, but the style is a genre of it's own. Bad, bad german phrases that are good for laughing. I wish I could give an example, but in an English post it seems kind of pointless ;) As mentioned above there are the fairytales and I don't mind the dubbing there as well, because a lot of it was anyway co-production between the East German DEFA and other East European Production Studios.

But I do want the Godzilla Movies with their original Japanese tracks and as I noticed that my favourite old Godzilla movie was a few minutes shortened in the German release I went right ahead and ordered it. Godzilla - Final Wars would be my current favourite though, it's so nice and trashy, a beautiful upgrade to the 21st century. Best of all is that the American character talks English all the time, even though everyone else is speaking Japanese. *lol* Oh wait the villain says something in English to him *muahaha*

In case anyone wants to take a look at the list: http://www.imdb.com/mymovies/list?l=37987017

Okay, obviously I dislike going to the movies anyway. Back when I was still in Düsseldorf and virtually lived next to this huge palace - I went there in all the years, exactly .... zero times. Why? Those idiots did not bother to show movies in the original version. Düsseldorf is a major city with lots of immigrants who speak English ... WTF? Okay, the area around the Cinema was more the Islamic corner, but do they had Turkish or French Originals? NOOOOOO of course not ...

If I wanted to see a movie in English, what I could do was take the tram drive half an hour and go to a cinema at the end of town. I actually watched a couple of movies there - The second Harry Potter, the second Lord of the Rings, Spider-Man, Charlie's Angel 2 and one or two I might have forgotten. The last one I saw there was the third Potter.

What an awful experience, I like talking during a movie, but I can be silent in cinema ... this time around I was groaning and moaning and I could not stop myself. It was too painful to watch and such a big disappointment, that the next time I went to a cinema, was with idolizer when I visited her in May in Berlin.

I really like the movie "Iron Man" apart from a few minor things (like a truly boring villain) I enjoyed it well enough, but not enough to change my dislike about cinemas. Most movies have a lot of flaws and I can't help but wanting to say something about it, when I see it. Especially when it is such a rotten piece of garbage ... it enhances my enjoyment of a dreadful or not so dreadful expierence. But you can't do that in a theatre, you have to mind the other people.

Now I don't want to wait for the Dark Knight DVD, I want to see it. Even though it seems to be packed with tons of flaws, but that does not mean I can't enjoy it. As much as I like bitchin' about flaws, I also watch movies filled with them if there is one thing I like enough to carry me through the rest.

This for example how I can deal with Van Helsing, that movie sucks, but I like the Costumes, I thoroughly enjoyed Roxburgh's Drama Queen approach to Dracula, the Brides were sooo cool (yeah lines were often dumb, but at least they actually talked and went out instead of being white and boring figures groveling at D. feet) and shirtless Hugh Jackman did not hurt either.

But it seems that chances of seeing the movie in Bremen in the original version are slim, but I just discovered very well hidden that they do have three showings of Hancock in the Original Version and two of Kung Fu Panda (everyone involved with that project should be tortured to death - honestly five seconds of that Panda talking to me at the start of Iron Man showing was enough to warrant capital punishment for them). So I am hopeful, I even wrote to them an e-mail asking about it and thus hopefully showing that interest is there.

And I also complained about their Theme Evenings, called Ladies-Night and "Männerabend" (Men's evening). Normally I don't mind stuff like this, but the Ladies Night always features the most rotten garbage Cinema has to offer (think Sex and the City) and Men's Night has the interesting ones ... WTF? Please could they be less medieval, I think not.

Just came from a short walk with the dog, on the way back it started pouring, I hope that it goes on for a while and cools everything a bit down.

I'm debating if I should take something for my headache, which does not seem to go away. But I don't want to take too many painkillers (although I think I might have to anyway, I already felt a few cramps ...)

As if the damn wheater and the flies aren't enough, now I have father bothering me as well. Typical for him to behave like a total asshole. I can't understand how my mother can possible keep him around, he is such a pathetic jerk. "I don't need anyone to tell me that the water is going again, I can find this out by trying. I'm intelligent enough." What a dimwit.

Then suddenly he decided that I said I had promised to take the dog for a walk once every day. Bastard, I never said anything like that. Not that I mind, but with this approach, he gained so much disrespect, not to mention with the whole add-on to his pulled out of the ass statement. I said I did not want to go while it is still so hot, because I can't take the heat etc. He said it does not have to be long.

So he does make an ass out of himself so that I can take the dog out for like five minutes? Not to mention that I think it be better for the dog if he can go a bit longer in the evening when I can let him off the leash, because nobody is left to jump at.

But no, Mr. Asshole just needs to feel big and important again, show us that he can push us around, just because he feels like it.

Otherwise would it have been so hard to ask: "Could you take of some of my responsibilites and take the dog at around 7 in the evening, so I can relax?"

I'd be happy to agree to that. But now he blew it. I can tell you he is not very intelligent, or otherwise he would not pull these stunts, that drive us further apart, when he is clearly whining about us not being close enough.

Living proof that age and parenthood do not make anyone mature, cause I don't know anyone as childish (or annoying) as my father.

honestly, what's up with this terrible weather, the heat is getting too me so much, I can't even bring myself to join idolizer's Heat Hatelisting. I guess I'll be sleeping it off till later in the day and hope that when I wake up, I'll be able to take a shower and that it won't be as freakin' hot.

Last night it barely got cool enough do do anything at 3 a.m.!

*sighs*

Just came back from a long walk with Shiva, boy, can she be annoying. It took forever ...

( 3 littze quizzes )

... featuring Matt Cordell alias the Maniac Cop from the movies of the same name.

I can't recall how often I had some strange dream, where he is running around and for some reason I dream up some character who is helping him kind of adjust to his undead state *lol*


ON a different note, we apparently got heavy water dammage .. there currently figuring out where exactly it is comming from, but there is a puddle in our heating room and high water in the boiler room next to it.

I also need to go to the university today *sighs* Group meeting , but first I have to take the dog for a walk.

So it's 7:30 a.m. I woke up around 5 p.m. that means I am awake now for 14 hours, which is not that much, but considering I had so little sleep thanks to another psycho detour of my mother, I can't believe that I am still up.

But I caught up in fanfition again.

On the one hand, I finished the first draft of my first chapter for the Moonlight fanfic I have been planning ever since idolizer introduced me to the fandom in May. Even found a beta reader via ff.net and sent it to her with some hints as to what will happen in the next chapters.

On the other, I did beta a story for another young writer. I stumbled upon her story, because I was spending too much time on the imdb.com board reading the topics about the new Batman movie. I really want to see it, if only for Leath Hedger. Now I can't say so far that I'm attracted to his role in the movie, as I haven't seen it yet and the pictures can hardly be called impressive. But reading all those topics about all those fangirls who are like "Oh my the joker is so hot" or my favourite topic title "I want him to make his magic pencil dissappear in me" *lol*

Crazy fangirls, but honestly I fancy some pretty strange villains myself, so when they were wondering if there was any fanfic around, I thought "Oh well, let's take look". I actually found one stories that fit my theme OFC/Joker *gg* The author is not very experienced, but she reminds me of my earlier attempts and despite a lack of description and extremly fast pacing, I enjoyed the overall smutty scenes (which are probably not very in character, but still ...) and the general mood.

Seeing that she was open for suggestions about improving the story, I decided to ask her if she'd like my help and she accepted. So we spent some time talking, I made some suggestion, she wrote a bit more, we talked about and really enjoyed working with her.

Now I sent her a file with corrections and a lot of comments, of her latest draft, and hope the red and re-write suggestions do not shock her too much. The most fun I had when I re-wrote the beginning of the chapter to show her what can be done. She liked it very much and used it as a model to rewrite it to fit her character.

Judging from when I wrote like this and how I write now, there is still a lot of room for improvement (there is always room for improvement) but at some point, I think she will catch up, as she has some talent and is a native speaker. Unlike me. But until then, I'll enjoy the chance to read some twisted Joker/OC smut.

I'll ask if it is okay for me to stay up a few night session and she terrorises me by making noise and cleaning up stuff? Well, mom, don't expect any thanks from me for behaving like a bitch. Guess who stays up even longer tonight and will cook a lot in the kitchen and walk up and down - see how much you like that.

Is it so much to ask to get a bit of sleep? Can't Psycho Mom clean up her own shit and leave me at peace?

edit: at least she wasn't complaining later on when I finally woke up after a bit of decent sleep, for being ungrateful about her disturbing me ...