Mistress Darkness

Today I have to hand in this paper, and I am still not finished with it. Not to mention I am still sick, I actually feel worse than Thursday again. Many thanks to my stupid father for getting on my nerves and doing everything to ensure I won't recover.

So yesterday I wanted to get an early start, (as I was too worn out on Friday to think straight), but could not as I realised that I have misplaced all my notes.

So in the late afternoon I was exhausted from cleaning up half my room - at least I had found them.

But I still needed to go shopping, so I thought I do that to get it out of the way ....

For a mysterious reason my car battery decided to go all dead - no clue why, there was no light left on or anything for that matter. *sighs* So for the moment I took the Mercedes and thought I put the recharger on today when I can see thanks to the wonderful invention that is the sun.

But both my parents went all asshole on me for not doing in then in the dark. FUCKING SHIT! Boohoo dare me for thinking about doing it in the morning when I might even get help from my brother. No, I am just a worthless peace of junk, that I do not delight with the idea to have to push the car to the outlett all by myself being still sick and all that shit.

And I am exhausted from it, my nose was so closed I need to inhale and spend over half an hour clearing it out to get rid of the pressure. I am all sweaty from moving the car all by myself. But at least I did it all by myself. I knew I could do it, but hell, my parents need to know that you know to feel better about themselves ... I just hope whatever they are suffering from that it is not hereditary.

Not to mention why do they always have to through these shitfests when I am under pressure and need to finish things in time? Okay, I am basically under pressure sincet his year started but still. Reminds me when I had ABITUR and all they did was to ensure I had no time to learn anything, because despite all their bitching about me needing a routine, they were the ones constantly messing up my time schedules. (Oh yeah, never mind they got no routine either, except maybe most of the times regular meals at the same time - they need the extra pressure and aggrevation this brings.)

The .pdf with my paper is just being sent out.

Was in an interesting day ... so Tersha wanted to show up and despite all the stress I still wanted to see her, thinking I could finish the rest later.

She did not came alone, O was with her, with was not that much of a surprise, they got along famously these past days and it spared a lot of feeling bad for being busy all the time. They got a lot of bad jokes so far because nobody believed they were not an item. Until now that was true.

It was strange, not that they are not considerate friends, but this whole thing about wanting to invite me for an ice or pay my pizza for me, was kind of strange. Then O said they wanted me to be in a good mood. I asked if they got engaged or something ... they said they had not gone this far.

No need to feel anxious about me, I love the idea of them being together, alone for pure selfish reasons - but I think it is also great because they seemed so happy.

I just wish I had more time for me on this weekend, which will be over pretty soon as I need to get up early tomorrow. But I will watch one episode of "Friday the 13th" O was kind enough to bring the second season along. (He ordered each of us a DVD Set) I think I just get some shoes and check my car first.