Mistress Darkness

So bascially the last week was awful and yet not that bad.

I felt moody all week and did not get around to do as much for the university as I should. Although I still felt okay and thought I might use Thuesday afternoon to catch up. Wrong, first I got a bad headache, then I took something and my stomach began hurting so bad I skipped several seminars on wednesday. (Good news is, I later found out the first one I skipped was cancelled anyway and in the other one, the prof was also sick and we only heard the in-class talks of other students and called it a day).

Thursday I was not feeling much better, I made it through the first three hour seminar and then I had four hours free time and after 90 minutes I felt a bad headache coming up and with my upset stomach and no place at the uni, to sit calmly and try to see if that makes it better I went home.

On friday I felt moody and did nothing at all - bad plan, but I felt it was my free day. I workedon fanlistings, listened to "Gabriel Burns" a German audio play series and thought on Saturday I could get to work on stuff (apart from the fact that I cooked dinner and ate with my father because I felt he needed something to cheer him up). But in the night I got so awful cramps, worse than anything I had in the last 12 month at least. I still feel more pain than usual. It is almost like when I was a teenager and my menstruation run amok. So I slept alot and stayed awake till 4 a.m. tonight making icons for Casino Royale.

I also booked the ticket for Berlin, after finally getting a hold of my brother who said fetching me from the train station on Monday evening will be no problem.

Now, I still got 1,5 days to do something - however, I also greatly occupied with a heavy problem that keeps bugging me tremendously. My weight ... but I will not rant on it here. I decided to make up a new community, where I might find likeminded people who also want to talk about their problems.

Okay, if you are remotely interested in my ramblings about my eating and weight issues, you will find them at healthy_diet.

I already talked about about my problems and my new found resolve. Mainly I want to focus on controlling my eating habits - if you want to improve your eating and/or work on your weight, then you are of course welcome to join. I just want a little statement before you join, so I know you are not a troll or have other malicious intentions.