Mistress Darkness

Whenever I feel a bit unhappy with the way things go, I get ideas how to re-organise the furniture in my room. *sighs* I should be working on those papers, but no my constantly travel to "hmm maybe I could put them like this ..."

It is driving me nuts.

Yeah, I felt a bit strange all day, finished my paper handed it in (now I find out I could have sent it via mail *headdesk*) then ate something and went to bed so I could get up later and clean the kitchen and my room to start tomorrow on my history papers.

Instead, I feel hot, my whole boy aches and I wonder how long it will take till my nose starts running again (my throat is still sore, so no surprise there)

So I am going to make myself some tea, take a ibuprofen, smear myself with vick and hope this passes quickly.

And for my 30th next month I got one wish: health. Please? Can I have some of that?

So I went to bed early, before 9 p.m. and now I get up and realise I am sweaty, my throat is still bad by nose is up even worse and I still feel tired. Yeah, it seems instead of going away completely (I had a sore throat and a blocked nose throught the past days) it returned.

Too bad I can't afford to miss another day. *sighs*

The .pdf with my paper is just being sent out.

Was in an interesting day ... so Tersha wanted to show up and despite all the stress I still wanted to see her, thinking I could finish the rest later.

She did not came alone, O was with her, with was not that much of a surprise, they got along famously these past days and it spared a lot of feeling bad for being busy all the time. They got a lot of bad jokes so far because nobody believed they were not an item. Until now that was true.

It was strange, not that they are not considerate friends, but this whole thing about wanting to invite me for an ice or pay my pizza for me, was kind of strange. Then O said they wanted me to be in a good mood. I asked if they got engaged or something ... they said they had not gone this far.

No need to feel anxious about me, I love the idea of them being together, alone for pure selfish reasons - but I think it is also great because they seemed so happy.

I just wish I had more time for me on this weekend, which will be over pretty soon as I need to get up early tomorrow. But I will watch one episode of "Friday the 13th" O was kind enough to bring the second season along. (He ordered each of us a DVD Set) I think I just get some shoes and check my car first.

Ever since I got the approval for the Dolph Lundgren fanlisting adoption I hit a big blank when it came to an idea for a new exciting layout. The flu did not help at all (especially as they came around the same time).

Today, I had an idea and if I was not so tired and had an urgent project for the university to finish, I would work on it till Midnight. Instead I am going to bed, then when I get up - I will start to work on the paper which I have to sent off on Sunday. Then shortly before the day is over I'll pack my stuff for an annoying day at school.

I have to leave shortly before seven. At least I am going to catch up on some sleep right now.

Yesterday my connection went dead and I could only get back online this morning. As if being stuck with four neurotic animals is not bad enough, I was also denied my one connection to the world.

Otherwise the day started sucky, too. Did not get much sleep, as I got up early to avoid the dog pissing and shitting again on the carpet. No use, she did it anyway. Can't that stupid dog not manage to go without pissing and shitting for 7 hours?

I am soooo glad when my parents return tomorrow morning, I am sick of those animals. They are major annoyance. Nothing like my sweet little rabbits, who are seldom loud and only when they chase each other - no let me rephrase that: when Chase chases them around the kennel, then they are loud. Otherwise they are sweet, calm, focused on themselves, they do not bother me, just demanding in that sweet begging kind of way more cool food like herbs or carrots.

Good news are that I am to adopt the Dolph Lundgren fanlisting and that I have given Maratofel a new layout, I just need to re-write several of the text. Scary how awful my English was back then.

So, it got worse and quickly, I ran out two times in the seminar and got the worst cramps (in the uterus, too - but that was just a side effect) and felt super shaky - but made it home alright.

Then I briefly felt better, but I think it was just due to the warmth of my heating pillow and of course the comfortable spot on my sofa.

Right now, I feel not too well, but not too awful. I got no appetite and feel glad that I have the bathroom next door. I wish I could take some ibuprofen for the cramps though.

*sighs* Will miss the exam tomorrow, but I went to see the doctor, he gave me something that hopefully will get me through the one on Thursday.

Hmm, I am sitting here and contemplating whether I should take my notebook along or if I should just go without. I probably should spent my free time reading, but unfortunately I don't really feel like it.

I am so not in the mood for all three lectures/seminars today. Just one week till the next history exam. I need to go to the library and copy texts. Well, I should get dressed.

As soon as I am home, I probably go to bed straight away, have already been up two hours. At least during my time in school I am going to have a relatively normal rhythm. Up at 6 a.m. home by 3 p.m. (if I am lucky) ... I should be able to get used to that.

I made it home, I am a bit tired, but still in a good mood.

Okay this is not really worth a post, but I will edit it later and post about the awesome dream I had before waking up today. Was kind of x-rated - nightmarish but not in a bad way. Involved strange caverns, demons, underworld and of course sex with one of the HOT demons ;)

Heh, this seminar is actually proving to be useful and fun! So while I went in bitter and annoyed I come out relaxed and enjoyed. Positive development, I got a good deal of sleep, so hopefully that means when I get home later on, I have some time to be creative, I long to make a few more icons and/or write a bit on the POTC fanfic.

Yeah, got up extremly early, because I could not sleep anymore, after going straight to bed when I returned from the uni at about 8 p.m. ... Then with a few interruptions I slept till about 3 a.m.

Baked a few muffins and a pie and now I am waiting for the tea to be ready so I can fill it in a bottle and go ...

Hopefully the gal who is running the show does not mind us using notebooks - cause I packed mine! So maybe I write more boring entries here later on!

Oh well, Miss Horst is late - but just now I saw her, so I can't make this long ... hmm she brought someone along who is presenting something. (Someone who wants to sell us something ...)

Oh well, I feel slightly better about today. I am going to use the seminars to be productive by preparing my 10 min talk (I got an idea, but I need to outline it and then at home I need to practice it, so it will be no longer than 10 minutes.)

I also brought my texts for the exam with me, so I can read when things get really boring ...

... did not do one thing for history and put it all up till today only to get a headache.

I did not felt too well yesterday either, but I had such a pleasant chat first with idolizer and then half an hour later with O. for about an hour and a half, that I did not noticed so much. Although I decided at the end of the second call to get into a hot bathtub.

Then I noticed as the hot water makes me dizzy. So I went to bed early and thought I get up earlier today. Four hours and still my headaches is getting the best of me. On top of that it's the menstruation time (I am almost two weeks early ...) so no wonder I am not feeling my best.

Started to read a text for history, but my headache and the typical need of German historians to use as many complicated words borrowed from Greek, Latin, French and only-they know what, made it already worse. It sucks so much! I am sooo happy that in the Ancient Times Lecture, we mainly have English text - so much easier to understand.

Sometimes I get the feeling those German scientiest just try to hide their inadequacy behind fancy words.

Funny site note: Yesterday in the bath I noticed that crust about the size of a cent piece on my ankle and I wonder what I did to injure myself and when, cause I really don't remember ... It is so strange, I get bruises all the time becasue I am so clumsy and half of the time I don't even notice or remember, but this must have bled as it looks more than a little surfacial scratch.

More a mood think than actually something being wrong, I mean my stomach aced yesteraday all day long, while today it's much better, not that it was sooo bad yesterday that I felt like mentioning it.

Well, today Season 4 of House arrived and I'm not sure it is actually the right medicine for my bleak mood. But I guess I am a bit of a masochist, and I kind of like his new team, especially the seven that are left at the moment.

The old-non doc is played by Carmen Argenziano and I adore that guy, somehow I love the cut-throat bitch - Chase and Cameron are annoying me somehow though ... and that is strange because I used to like Chase.

So inbetween doing all that history stuff and I do need to do a lot more for that next year (in those few days off I still have left) I also managed to work a bit on fanart - making five wallpapers for Van Helsing and just now one for Lost Boys. I also started two wallpaper calenders with 5 of those six wallpaper.

I sorted through my computer games and made a list of games I could install and play and was rather successful also I do need to test more. But I haven't got the time so it will have to wait. It's bad enough I played so much Lamentation Sword, but it was sooo relaxing.

The only other thing I did manage to do was work on the Pirates of the Carribean Fanfiction. The first chapter is finished and beta-read but I wanted to work a bit more on the story before publishing any of it. But I have been haning forever on Chapter 2. Which involves Jack (not the monkey) getting laid and somehow I still haven't gotten to that part - but I reworked the chapter a great deal and had several ideas to thicken the plot.

If this goes on, I have enough to make a six hour movie *lol*

Oh well, today I drive to Tersha's and apart from O, two or three more guests might come or might not. An alcohol free new year's eve is not what most people have in mind. Time to dress a bit more properly ...

And as this is the definitely the last of this year in my journal, I wish my f-list a Happy New Year!

Guten Rutsch ;)

No, I haven't spend the holidays cleaning up my room, but I got the idea to sort through all of my games and see which ones I like to keep, which ones I should re-buy in the English version and which ones I can not play anymore due to compatability issues and those whom I never going to play again at any rate.

So far I got most games running, some I know I will get running and some I am not sure, but I just found out how to get older windows game running here on my Vista 64, now I see to it that I get the Broken Sword issues fixed up.

But first I should get dressed and be ready to attend dinner I am sure we start at 1p.m. but better get ready in time and see if I can help. Hmm, wild boar *yummy*

So now to head off into the dreaded weekend. I got the in-class essay prepared, I got the plan printed out, I have the monolingual dictionary and now I just need to pack, comb my hair and leave.

BUT I do not want to - I want to stay home and relax in front of my computer. But it has to wait till Monday. C'est la vie!

Today O came by and dropped a shitload of DVDs with me, like movie trilogies, single movies, the first Dr. Who episodes which seem to be in black and white, and the entire Millenium series! *wow*

I can't wait for the break to have time to watch all of this.

Just participated in a really stupid post-simulation survery ... how annoying. Really truly, they asked about three positive and negative aspects about some OPUSi thing that I never heard about before, I mean shit, I thought we used some software named moodle?

At 6 p.m. he left and I slept till 11:30 p.m. as I have to get up at 8 a.m. I will not stay up much longer, but I will sort through some of my copies and notes for the history classes.

So today, I will see Tersha again, as it is her birthday and a good exucse not to spend the entire weekend with unistuff. I was not feeling too well this past week, I think it is the weather. Sleeping it out was a good idea, although I missed some courses, I think it was worth the revising I'll have to do.

I just really should use the time before I'll have to go, to clean up a bit, I was so lax on it, the kitchen frightens even me at the moment.

So I have this almost awesome schedule for the uni this semester, with the exception of the early wednesday session, which is by the way the most boring and ridiculous course I have to participate in.

As always I got to bed way too late, had five hours of sleep (not that I could have slept earlier) but after I returned, I immediately felt sleepy, forgot about the teleconference and slept still 6 p.m. Now it is 3 a.m. and I' finally feeling sleepy and a bit headachy (is that a word), but also horny as hell and I have to get up at 8 a.m. that means 4 hours sleep maximum.

Oh well time to be off to bed tommorrow is a long, long day - although I really think about taking the car to Bremen and thus being able to get up later as usual.