Mistress Darkness

Wednesday session is really annoying

2008-12-04T02:10:32Z

So I have this almost awesome schedule for the uni this semester, with the exception of the early wednesday session, which is by the way the most boring and ridiculous course I have to participate in.

As always I got to bed way too late, had five hours of sleep (not that I could have slept earlier) but after I returned, I immediately felt sleepy, forgot about the teleconference and slept still 6 p.m. Now it is 3 a.m. and I' finally feeling sleepy and a bit headachy (is that a word), but also horny as hell and I have to get up at 8 a.m. that means 4 hours sleep maximum.

Oh well time to be off to bed tommorrow is a long, long day - although I really think about taking the car to Bremen and thus being able to get up later as usual.

Deam induced nostalgic depression

2008-12-01T15:56:24Z

Had a weird dream this afternoon - first I was watching a live Batman stage show, where Batman did not show up, but Robin saved the day. He was played by Chris O'Donnell and later on he agreed to do an interview with me - which was kind of the cute part of the dream. The other part was rather weird, as it featured meeting Adrian Paul (the guy who plays the Highlander in the TV-Show) and he was having a bad headache and first rather grumpy, but I remember coming up to him and saying something like that one could think he was really an immortal because he was still looking as good as during the show.
Then asked him whether he needed a massage and he happily agreed, so we went into the cafe outside the convention and to make a strange dream short, later that night we had sex. Which is weird, as I never liked McCleod and I never ever had a crush on the actor. Not that I think he is bad loooking but the way he played Duncan was a serious turn off.

Although my migraine was a lot better when I woke up half an hour ago, I kept thinking more about that one comment I made. About him seeming to be immortal. Because it is kind of depressing to see who so many of the gorgeous actors of my late teens are becoming really old and often enough let themselves go early. But it is not just that ... it's like those good times back then also fade away in much the same manner.

I do love Criminal Minds and I'm also kind of fascinated by Dr. House, but that is it. It's like this millenium only two tv shows and very few movies came out that really fascinated me. I certainly don't need them to be extremly good in terms of intellectual quality, as one of the movies was Van Helsing, but there is something gone missing since the good old times when Highlander, Forever Knight and hell even Poltergeist was on the air.

Back then something was different, I can't quite point my finger to what it was, I just know it is not what I thought that I have become so much more critical. Cause I see the flaws in all of my old fandoms, but I still like the shows ... it's like the brake with Buffy and Stargate was not just the characters and concept chaning drasticly something else happened and it destroyed those shows for me.

Same with the movies, all those really bad action movies of the 80's, while some where really good most were just really, really entertaining. I rented two newer Dolph Lundgren movies, which were kind of nice, one was even very good story-telling wise, but they lacked so much of the fun that was present back then, when I fought with my parents to see Universal Soldier, when I rented one Van Damme, Lundgren or Stallone flick after another from the rental store. And all those bad horror movies, that were more unwilling comedies than anything else.

What made Condemned and Dance of the Dead so good for me, was the fact that whoever came up with it, certainly had a flair for those times as well. Hell, even as dreadful as "Batman and Robin" was, I prefer it any day over "Batman Begins" or "The Dark Knight" it was so much fun, even with all the bad puns by Arnie.

I would love to go back with what I known today and return into my 15 year old self and do it all over, without wide-spread internet access it would probably be hard to contact the fans, but at least they would be there and not all gone ...

Luis Royo: Adult themed icons

2008-11-30T16:12:15Z

If you know Luis Royo's paintings, you are probably aware that a lot of his stuff is sexually very explicit, in light of today's stress I spend some time relaxing making naughty icons.

Bah, I feel miserable ...

2008-11-30T09:01:25Z

... today my parents come back and I need to get them from the airport, but so far I don't have the car for it. I got the small old Jetta, but they will be very unhappy if I have to fetch them driving that one.
My brother apparantly took the big one for a ride and is gone since Friday evening. No clue when he will be back, there is no reaching him on the cell phone either.

Not to mention there are still little things, I have to clean up as the dog as usual made a mess.

I hate my parents pets, the dog, the three stupid cats - they are totally messed up. My parents are good at that. Not that they do it intentionally, but their inadequcy at taking care of kid or pets just leads to it.

At first I kept the dog with me, but the stupid thing always robs closer to my rabbits and then I have to grab her and pull her back. I don't have time for that shit. So now as soon as I get outside my door, the stupid thing is stepping in my path, bumping her cold wet nose into my ass whatever.

And getting out in the cold weather has gotten me slightly sick again and smelling that do all day, just helped along the fact that I feel naseaus. Time to make some tea, that should warm me up and I got one here that should help my stomach feel better, too.

Not to mention that I had terrible headaches and migraines from Friday to Sunday, just when I thought, yeah, migraine is gone, just a bit of a headache, it got worse again. All because I pulled something in my neck when the stupid beast (our oversized Labrador) had to jump with me at the end of the leash hoping to harrass some poor other dog or people we saw outside.

I really don't mind taking care of a dog for my parents, but the fact that they are so untrained makes it a fucking mess. I never dare to go away and leave a pet that unruly in the hands of someone else.

Thanks to all that I am terribly behind with uni stuff, even though my entire Thursday was canceled and I should have gotten the work done, but nooo ... *grrr*

My first hate mail

2008-11-28T15:38:15Z

This morning I was sheered up by a comment from someone who "joined" my Christmas Hatelisting.

haha, little girl had a bad experience on christmas, oh too bad. christmas DOES NOT suck, you UNRELIGIOUS ATHEIST s***. christmas is something very SPECIAL. it's for love, family , Christ, and warm special things. but if u hate it, fine. more for us. but, you WILL regret hating it, and that's a PROMISE

What a comment full of fail. I love it when people who apparantly know nothing but hate, talk about love and family.

haha, little girl had a bad experience on christmas, oh too bad.

Such a condescending attitude, I mean, just imagine I hated x-mas because something truly bad happened to me (raped by a family member, loss of a parent etc) - what kind of a low-life asshole does this person have to be to write that to a total stranger? But luckily my x-mas experiences were not nearly that scarring and I could not care less if someone rejoices in the fact that I had some miserable experiences related to Christmas. It just amuses me that a sick asshole like that talks about love.

christmas DOES NOT suck, you UNRELIGIOUS ATHEIST slut.

Funny enough I never said anywhere on that page that xmas sucks, just that the listing is for people who loathe or dislike it. Life must be hard if you can't even understand those simple statements, I guess that probably makes it difficult to understand how silly calling a stranger an unreligious atheist is. First of all many atheist consider atheism to be a religion (The believe that god does not exist) secondly it revealy how incredibly narrowminded Christians are. I could have been a muslim, a jew, or whatever other religion does not celebrate the birth of some obscure guru type who was supposedly born in some cow stable. For your information I am a proud agnostic slut! Yes, I figure that everytime somenoe calls a woman a slut, who is not unfaithful, it is a compliment, as it stands for a woman who is enjoying her sexuality with the same freedom as a man. And boy, did I enjoyed it, just minutes before reading that message, I had a nice quick orgasm thanks to a stimulating finger and a dirty mind.

christmas is something very SPECIAL. it's for love, family , Christ, and warm special things.

No, christmas is nothing special, what is special is families actually getting together, share some quality time and give out their love and support to anyone in the family. When they only do it at Christmas then that makes it a pitiful and meaningoless act. Luckily I have love not only on christmas, my family (even though necessarily always my parents) and I get along just great and I'm welcome with them any time, Christ can go and fuck himself (if anyone can do it, I'm sure he can) and I constantly have warm special things in my life. Poor guy, no wonder he is so full of hate and loathing for others.

but if u hate it, fine. more for us.

More of what? I always get plenty of xmas sweets after xmas (only that I pay half of the price) But thanks for giving me permission not to like it, although I am not aware that I gave you permission to like it. *muaha* Yeah, I'm currently having a bit of a headache, excuse the bad joke.

but, you WILL regret hating it, and that's a PROMISE

Yeah, based on his/her extensive knowledge of my person? For the sake of his/her family I hope he/she does not make such empty promises to them all the time.

Somehow I wonder how people like that make it through the day. But at least it gave me a good laugh. Cause as sadistic that might sound, I kind of enjoy upsetting such intolerant assholes.

late at the uni

2008-11-24T19:45:03Z

I'm still sitting at the uni, despite my tutorium being over, but I wouldnot have caught the train anyway, so I decided to spend some time with my notebook.

Rediscovered one of my favourite songs, who is not available on any CD last time I looked on youtube! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZUHJLcnh8nc

I think listening to it, inspired a really cool dream, which I already worked over into a concept for a story, not sure what it will be. A romance? A thriller? Horror?

Features a guy who has been screwed up in a medical experiment and who has traits of both vampire and werewolf, but is actually neither. But I thought I start where the dream begins, him being in a realtively nice enviroment, between two women, one that he desires and one that is his "wife". The later insist that he needs her, but he distrust her and does not like her, he remembers only part of what happened to him and has no clue anymore what he can be capable off ...

I think it's the first story, where actually the guy is the main protagonists, although of course one of the girls will also be very, very important. Guess which one?

Oh well time to pack the notebook and head to the restrooms ...

the stupid - it burns!

2008-11-22T13:25:04Z

Seriously if the amount of cluelessness displayed by my mother daily was an indication on the state of her brain, you would think it was rotten away to the size of a marble.

Just a few seconds ago, I get a call, it's WELTBILD but before I even have the phone at my ear, my mom yells up from below that she gave WELTBILD my number because she was sick of them calling her all the time. So I yell back downstairs, yeah, I got THEM on the phone right NOW!
The poor women on the phone, goes like "ehm, yes" (because the German word for that is DIE and it can used to refer to a single person as well and that way it is even less polite).
Naturally I am still pissed about being yelled at from downstairs by mom again. (even years ago she had not the brainpower to realise that yelling at me from downstairs is pissing me off- because how fucking impolite can you get. If I want something from the, I go downstairs, so move your lazy ass up here to talk to me. You can do it if you want to bitch about me not having done the dishes, so don't tell me you are not capable of it ...)
So the women on the phone gets the rather grumpy question: "So what is it, some problems with my invoice or what?" (haven't ordered for a while, so I know she had to say no) Naturally she went on: "NO NO, we call to ask how satisfied you are with our customer serivce."

They bother people on the phone to ask a question that should automatically amount to "Well it sucks, bother someone else."

Instead I told them, that I can't even remember the last thing I ordered with them, because it has been a while and that the last thing I got from them was ordered along with one of my parent's orders. So I could tell her nothing.

She goes like: "Well that is not what your mother just told me."

I think: "Well, too fucking bad."

Don't really remember what I told her, but it was the end of the conversation. She just said she would note it down. Oh, whatever. I would be surprised if they call me again. The thing is my mom is always polite on the phone, even when she is completely distressed and got me crying my eyes as a child by yelling at me, to strangers on the phone she is always polite. So I doubt that they ever notice how annoyed she was at them calling her.

Prior to that incident, I was listening to music videos, with the door almost completely closed and worked on transcribing a text. At first I did not hear anything, then I was thinking, hmm is someone yelling downstairs, but did not re-act as my parents, especially my father, frequentley yell for each other through the house. It was only when the song finished and there was a moment of silence, that I heard my mom's voice saying "you really must not want to have any contact with us" blabla ... That's of course when I realized it was me she wanted.

Now her shit talk really annoys me. I am the only one who actually makes an attempt to maintain a familiy bond here, by constantly going downstairs and attempting to communicate about something different than "garbage, dishes and laundry". Just as often I feel like an idiot for doing so. She kindly informed me (after having already several chances to do so) that she has some fish for me and whether I wanted to it right now. She obviously was a bit pissed as I told her that I'm still not hungry. Telling me that I had to eat it today ...

I like eating with them together on occasion, but the pressure it creates when they kind of bring something along and then get pissd when I already made something or ate is not good for my benevolent mood ...

On another note, it snowed, I need to go outside and take a few pictures before the sun melts it all away (this morning it was already much prettier at 8 a.m. when I went to bed)

A bit of Twilight bashing

2008-11-20T20:53:33Z

Today idolizer shocked and entertained me by posting this grotesquerie:

Kindly re-posting it on the Bloody Fangs Board

I actually thought seeing this in the cinema for the LOLZ, but seeing this I changed my mind. I'm not even sure I want to see it at all.

Just looking at Edward's face alone reminds me of the worst of the worst Mary Sue fanfictions. Especially one Hermione Make-over Sue, where she practically gone gothic, she also was Voldis Daughter. So her looks changed to her being pale with black hair and violet eyes. I wrote the author asking her why she turned her in such an ugly looking freak (and also why she would have violet eyes ... cause even if Voldi now had red ones, that does not add up to his daughter naturally having violet ones ...)

That's what I think of when I see Edward = UGLY, UGLY Freak. Or more precisely an ugly freak who takes himself too serious. What is this look on his face? It's so badly trying to say "I'm a bad boy, you know the kind of bad boy your parents always warn you girls about ..." and actually say "Look at me, I'm dumb as a poppy-seed."

What's wrong with him, did he used his sister's grey eyeshadow as rouge? Clearly the animal blood only diet is not becoming him well ...

Although the guy behind him on the left (that is on the right for the viewer) looks even worse. Initially (from the first scene that Immortalitas posted) I thought he might be one of the werewolves, but considering that he has this even more sickly looking silver pale skin colour, he must be another vampire. Again this dumb loser poser stance complete with the six-pack abdomen shot. So pathetic ...

And the little Missy behind him ... with this determined "hand on hip" pose is - even though hardly in the picture - enough to make me give up all hope on this site of the cast.

Let's talk about Bella ... now the actress looks really beautiful, but what is up with that pose? Especially the eyes, she got the eyes you expect on an experienced mature women, that knows how to handle guys. Looks so wrong for a supposedly grey mouse with severe issues about her self-esteem (at least she had those as far as I read)

Somehow the guy behind her reminds me of Harry Potter, I think that pose was used on one of the posters ... wonder who the pale drug chick who stares like she has moon fever at the ceiling (hmm moon fever, is she one of the wolves? I did not read so far, have the wolves a problem with sunlight, too?) Okay the real drug addict there is probably the guy on the left, boy does he look messed up or what?

I guess most people don't expect much from it and for most these empty poser shells of a cast are probably what makes this movie so special for them, I rather watch Subspecies, it's bad, but at least Radu has personality and charm (yes, only compared to those ...)

x-posted to the Bloody Fangs Board

Cool Vamire Dream

2008-11-17T15:39:49Z

The day started with me waking up from a really cool dream, I don't remember all the details, but it was awesome.

In the dream (which started at my home just with a different family) was about me, being visited by some vampire lord who lived in a castle not far from our house. It was obviously somewhat in the past, as there were no phones etc, despite it being the house from the looks and layout. My family were obviously vampire hunters and saved me.
Dream I and myself seemed to agree that the vampire was the better choice compared to the family she was staying with and the vampire and my dreamself developed a plan and faked the vampire's demise.
Then we moved in his castle and from there we planned to get rid of my dreamselves family. Naturally I woke up as things were set into motionn, but it set my mood for the day.

Still, the seminar has too many weak spots to truly exite me. I wish the girl who is giving it would not always wait so long for someone to answer. Oh well ...

funny little quiz

2008-11-07T21:25:36Z

What kind of Bean addict are you?

but this one is nice, too ;)

What kind of Bean addict are you?

Amazon partnerprogram

2008-11-04T09:19:08Z

So today I finally decided to look up those partner programs and maybe set up a few links on my fanlistings, hoping to get a few extra cents that might amount to some good.

None of my fanlisting have much traffic, but still, maybe I am lucky ;)

I realised I really need to work on the fanlisting for the Nightwish Album once, I have an overview there about all the different version and I think I need to expand this - now with the links I got a bit more motivation. Besides I don't think these harmless links or banners are much of an annoyance, so why not?

Just completed a writing assignment, now I have till 11:45 (then I'll have to leave for the train)

hmm boring ...

2008-11-03T18:41:23Z

... the tutorials are so boring and the history seminars in a way, too. The first one about Marc Aurel is kind of cool, but has it's drawn out moments, the second one seems to consist of these moments. It's annoying to wait for the teacher to go on, sometimes they ask questions and you got no clue what they want. Sometimes it is something abstract, sometimes it is something very obvious (so obvious that you feel stupid for saying it). But they wait and wait ...

Oh well, my stomach demands food and the only thing that keeps me from falling asleep.I hope I can get off early and catch the early train. But I am afraid more waiting lies ahead.

Sometimes I wish someone would care - at least a bit

2008-10-29T11:04:15Z

Typically I had a bad morning, but do I get a least a tiny amount of sympathy from my mother? No, just the usual bashing. All she bothers to do is tell me, why this is all my fault. Yeah, thanks so much.

Sometimes I am so fed up with my mother, all the complaining and bitching - and even if there is kind word hidden beneath it, who fucking cares about that when she gets me so pissed off I just wish I could punsh her lights out?

Is it too much to expect that if say something, "fuck this went so wrong, I am terribly pissed off" to say something like. "Yeah shit, that really sucks" accompanied by maybe something nice maybe an offer about a cup of tea, a hug or something. At least when my parents still had money to spare, I would get some of that ... (I know not really great, but at least something as oppossed to their high horse bullshit - seriously that is the main problem, constantly she is bitching moaning about what I am not doing, when she does not have her shit together herself!)

Now dinner is ready ( not that I feel like eating) but I don't have much choice later I might tell those who are interested and not, what went wrong this morning.

edit: Stupid bint, yeah I am up again, minutes after. Aparantly my mother does not like the look on my face and when I told her, heh, I am pissed, I can't look nice, so I am going. She went all pissy, "well go, ehh, if you don't want to see us, eeeh" Whiny bitch. So typical of this unfeeling asses to expect me to put on a cheery face, just like that. Fuck you with a rusty chainsaw. When you feel bad, you not only look like that, too - you usually come after me and bust my ass, just to feel better. So don't give me this "Don't look at me like this" crap. Because from now on you are really the main reaosn for my bad mood.

And honestly I can do without their company ... it's not like I can have a meaningful conversation with them. Up here I can talk to anyone from Agent Smith to Spike (yeah I talk to non-existant persons about various things, sometimes I just imagine telling Severus Snape, how many children he had with Sirius in various fanfics and imagine his reactions ... so much fun)

I already feel better, typing this!

Not a good start into the week

2008-10-27T16:08:03Z

Yesterday I was fully aware of the fact that we have now winter time ... but I forgot to actually change the time on my clocks.

I got up early today and spend some time working on the computer, then however I decided to fetch some breakfast and after that I felt a bit tired ... so just dozed a bit on the sofa. My computer turned off and I looked at the digital clock behind it. I saw it was time to leave. So I quickly put on all my stuff, got to the train, arrived very early in the classroom, turned on my notebook and saw the real time. *sighs*

I went off one hour too early. *headesk* Sometimes I am sooo dumb.

If that wasn't bad enough, my throat hurts from acid reflux and I haven't taken the meds with me. I suppose as soon as the tutorial is over (I already completed the first seminar "Marc Aurel") I will see if the shop is still open and get something to eat that hopefully helps with the icky and uncomfortable feeling in my throat.

Note to myself: Sew that new handbag and put your meds in, stupid bint!

Friday the 13th (not the boring movies, the cool tv show)

2008-10-23T22:20:52Z

Woooot, finally i got it, Ortwin brought it around. First of course I had to watch "Dance of the Dead" which I saw with idolizer in Berlin on the Fantasy Film Fest. The DVD arrived earlier today, but I wanted to wait till it became dark ;) Funny as ever ..

Now I checked out the episodes and finally I can see "Scarecrow" again (similiar to the concept of one Supernatural episode, just more classy) and then I go and watch "Baron's Bride" the vampire episode. I had an mpg of it (bad rip from tv) where the end was missing. So I am also looking forward to that.

And so many episodes I haven't been able to see (as it always came late and I had to be sneaky if I wanted to watch it - not to mention that my tv had a horrible picture with the good stations, you would not believe in what bad quality I watched Forever Knight, sometimes it was closer to a no-signal screen)

*squee*

Great just great

2008-10-23T08:48:23Z

Today, I get up early, being a good girl, after having spend most of my free time doing homework. What do I get for it? I arrive and have to discover that the lecture is cancelled because the woman giving it is sick. Great, now I have to, sit around here and wait till 1 a.m. when my next lesson starts.

Oh well at least, I brought my notebook, while typing is a pain in the ass with that fucked up touchpad (if I have to work more often with it, I might even end up making a new hatelisting) constantly making the cursor jump while I am typing. But at least I can do something. Wished however that I brought one of the books I have to read. Too bad, we don't have lockers, so I can bring a keyboard and keep it here.

Tired, headache ....

2008-10-21T09:36:11Z

... not the ideal basis for a nice day at the uni. However I just found my ibuprofen, so maybe it will get better.

Normally I have later, but I got to see a certain teacher about missing grades for the module and so I have to show up with all the assignments and prove that I did do them.

Then I have two hours to spare, where I will copy stuff in the library and then I have my seminars. I don't really feel like it, but I go there by car, so hopefully, I get home early. Now I just need to check upon the rooms.

lol What movie am I?

2008-10-19T20:41:18Z

What Classic Movie Are You?
personality tests by similarminds.com

Uni - my semester schedule for 2008/2009

2008-10-17T16:31:26Z

Unless, I overlooked something I will take part in the following courses:

Monday

15:00 - 18:00	Marc Aurel (seminar part of my "ancient world" modul)
18:00 - 21:00	Krieg der Worte: Feindbilder im Europa der Frühen Neuzeit War of the Words: Concepts of the Enemy in Europe in early modern times (seminar part of my "european history" modul)

Tuesday

15:00-17:00	Democratic Thought through Language (Part of the "Democratic Thought" Modul*)
17:00-19:00	Content-based Integrated Skills 1f

Wednesday

8:00-10:00	Englischunterricht: Konzeptionen und Grundlagen

Thursday

10:00-12:00	Internationale Beziehungen im 17. Jahrhundert International Relationships in the 17th Century (lecture part of my "european history" modul)
13:00-15:00	Alleinherschaft im Altertum Autarchy in the ancient world (lecture part of my "ancient world" modul)
15:00-17:00	Slavery and Writing (winter part of a modul~)

Friday

15:00-17:00	Content-based Integrated Skills 2f
17:00-19:00	Democratic Thought through Literature (Part of the "Democratic Thought" Modul*)

~I have to take another course in the summer semester 2009 to complete this modul
* I need to take a third seminar in the summer semester 2009 to complete this modul

Somehow Wednesday sticks out in an annoying way, but at least it is the only course for the day!
I'm so happy that I got the Content-based Intergrated Skills Course I wanted. The only other course I could have taken would have been with Mr. Hyde, and while he has cute accent, I've begun to suspect that he is some sort of fundie and one of the courses would have been Friday at 8 a.m. and that would have sucked.

Books, Books, ...

2008-10-15T16:17:39Z

I've been reading a lot and ordered some books in the past days, all for the university.

One of the seminars I plan to participate in is called "Slavery in Writing". There are we reading six "books" :

"The History of Mary Prince" by Mary Prince
"Narrative of the Life of Frederick Douglass" by Frederick Douglass
"Uncle Tom's Cabin" by Harriet Becher Stowe
"The Sugar Wife" Elizabeth Kuti
"Lose Your Mother: A Journey Along the Atlantic Slave Route" Saidiya Hartman
"A Harlot's Progress" by David Dabydeen

For another seminar we are reading three books I always wanted to read, and one I already owned:

"The Handmaid's Tale" by Margaret Atwood
"1984" by George Orwell
"Animal Farm" by George Orwell

And just for myself I re-read yesterday the first Skulduggery Pleasant Novel and afterwards finally the second one. I was not disappointed, it is easy, fast and funny.

Online I'm still busy re-vamping fanlistings, creating an icon archive for all kinds of vampire and werewolf icons, as well as making buttons (slowly)

I did re-vamped the [+]Agents (Matrix Series) fanlisting with two new skins and some extras. And finally made codes for Starbuck,Stephanie Edgley and the Gotham City fanlisting.

Incidentally I almost went back on track with the Matrix fanfic, but talking to Tersha and watching Criminal Minds with her, got us an idea for another fanfic. A Criminal Minds one, oh well let's see how that will turn out. But now time for something nice to eat.

I forgotten how bad this movie is ...

2008-10-09T22:23:27Z

I'm currently re-styling my Agents fanlisting and while I am at it, I decided I might as well re-watch the second movie. Boy, what a collection of terrible, cheesy dialogue. Just when I think it can't get any worse, someone says something incredibly enlightning like "No, what happened, happened and couldn't have happened any other way." Add on top of that the Merovingian's dialogue and you got me ready to lose some bleeprin (which I normally only apply after reading bad bad fanfic)

But the second movie definitely has two very strong points that made buy the DVD, hmm or should I say five? The three agents and of course the Twins! Maybe when I have enough time and can figure out the video program, I do a clip with all the important scenes and something nice from the soundtrack or what else I can find that fits.

pissed off

2008-10-02T12:59:25Z

So I went to the school to get that stupid writ and what happens? No sign of the teacher and he did not bother to place it where he said he would. Thanks for making me waste 2.5 hours and money on gas.

And of course I still need to go back and get that stupid writ that confirms I have been there. *grr* If looks could kill, there would have been hundreds of dead people, namely everyone in path, so royally pissed off.

Can you tell it's this time of the month? Yeah again, that early and also that much worse compared to the last time. I really need to see the gyn and get back on the hormones. FUCK, FUCK, FUCK ...

SUNDOWN arrived

2008-10-02T09:28:07Z

woot, will watch it later as soon as darkness falls ;)

Right now I am about to take off to school to fetch a signed paper stating that I was indeed participating in several classes as well as giving a few lessons.

I wanted to be on my way but the mail arrived and thought I needed to sign something, eventually I found out the dvds had been there since yesterday. Sure, put my mail in mom's office, where I won't notice it.

Still a bit suffering from that cold

2008-09-28T12:58:24Z

It seems I can't shake off the cold, but tomorrow should be my last day at the school and my parents go on another trip to Norway (visiting the family my father has been quite close with since the end of WII) from the 1st to the 5th, which should give me some relaxing time after the 6th till the semester re-starts ...

I am soo looking forward too feeling better.

Sundown is on its way

2008-09-22T11:38:21Z

Finally, it was about time ... I can't wait to see this old 80's classic vampire movie. I just hope I find the underling main evil vampire just as cute as when I was 13 ;)