Mistress Darkness

The weekend wasn't so hot, so please don't wonder why I haven't replied to comments yet. I just did not felt so hot.

On Saturday evening and yesterday late I did feel best of all, but still not like writing or doing some of the more exhausting things on my to-do list. Therefore I did something that was both time consuming and only moderately creative.

I worked on my personal homepage jamballa. The set up as it is now is just not to myliking anymore. Okay the new layout I begun last year alreadey is not either, but I guess before I think much about that, I should have some more content to fill the site with anyway.

( blabla about the new jamballa which might go online as early as 2010, considering how fast I work on this *lol* )

Did I mention I don't feel too hot this morning either, nose is closed up (but that is almost a given in this wether, not that I am allergic, but it is crocked and the night air closes it up, as I can't sleep with a closed window when it is so hot) and my digestion is still a bit rumbled up. Considering the weekend, I feel much improved though. I dreamt of my best friend who told me in the dream a few times, very sublte that I needed to lose weight. Yeah, I hear you *möp*

Oh well, still not top fit, but I am getting there. Started bleeding today and as a result I haven't slept well the night before. So I was again at the uni, but not the entire day.

Decided I needed more dragon icons and begun scanning in the images from my daily calender last year (as I can't really concentrate) .... I guess I will make some on the weekend.

Tomorrow I need to work on my history in-class report and give one in the evening in English about Die Hard. Not to mention that I have to hand in an essay on Thursday.

But what I really want is some time and inspiration to work on fanfics again. I always got these ideas, but I am too much of a self-critic. I miss those times, when I could swing ideas by Tersha and she would give useful feedback. But she has grown out of it and I guess the fact that she speed reads books for a quick summary, makes it impossible for her to pay attention to detail anymore anyway. *sigh*

At least I have uni only very late tomorrow!

You know despite feeling a little woozy, I wanted to continue with my plan.

That was a) make use of the possibility to shop till 10 p.m. b) buy a big pizza and c) rent some dvds d) eat pizza while watching one DVD e) watch the rest of the bunch

a till c no problem, d I couldn't eat all of it e) impossible I needed to lie down as the pain in my belly was so intensive.

But I could not sleep it off, 40 minutes after I got up, tried to throw up in the toilet. But I couldn't, was never good at that. Then I stood up, walked to the basin and suddenly ... no details needed.

It was barely a part, I took something for the stomach and lay down again. Now 10 minutes ago, same game, I could not throw up in the toilet, but somehow the bending over caused me to throw up in the basin. Man, no matter that I felt so sick, how did all of that fit in there?

I feel so *brr* and some people do that willingly to themselves? I don't even want to imagine it *sighs*

I guess I take one more pill for my stomach (the last one) and hope that I feel better soon. I got so much to do for the university.

I got an awful headache! I got so much to do this week - oh well just one thing, but time is running out - a bit at least.

Oh well, yesterday was the first meeting at school, where we got shown around and given our timetables. I will run along with a 5th year class for this week. Shockingly enough they got about twice as much hours compared to my schedule. Then again the school practices bilingual teaching and they got 7 hours of English per week. Which is kind of cool for me to observe ... but tomorrow after the first two lessons (one English one German) they go on an excursion. That will be interesting, too.

We still got a prep-up meeting with things we should look out for from our tutor, so we went on to that. I must say it was real fun, interesting and helpful. At first we played a few games, that we are supposed to do with our pupils later. Normally I can't stand stuff like that, but it was cool.

I suppose getting up at 4 a.m. wasn't the best move, but I just could not sleep anymore. As a result I was beginning to get extremly tired by the end of the meeting. Back home, I coordinated a few things with my brother, as this morning the car had died again on me. Made myself something to eat and fell asleep. That's when I woke up with this splitting headache.

Great, instead of spending my time learing for linguistics and stuff - I have migraines and headaches, just when I think I'm over the worst - it goes back the other way ... I got so much to learn. I'm freaking out - I'm so desperate I even went back (although just for today) to drinking Pepsi light. My mum still has a few bottles ...

I won't even go into how my digestive system feels like - I think I might have caught something!

Yesterday all I could think about was sex, sex and again sex. Which I guess is the reason why I ate so much yesterday. I'm glad the shopping trip to IKEA fall flat, considering my tummy aches and I got a major headache now. Hopefully I get around when the car is back (we only got one today) so I can at least go to the last semniar I have today.

But apart from being extra stupid, yesterday was kind of nice. The whole weekend was cool. Friday I drove to Tersha's instead of home and we spend the night up to 1 am having fun ranting about some bad mvoies and after we got up the next day moved a lot of the furniture - now there is even more space. She is just lacking two shelves for CDs and DVDs, but that will have to wait. It is not my fault that all the cars are broken down or even if not, that I feel like throwing up.

Looks like this week will be spend solely with linguistics ...

my arm has swollen a lot more. At one point I wasn't sure if I should continue to drive home. The dizzyness has gotten stronger - plus my throat is slightly swollen.

My parents are like "Gee I drove there and there when I could hardly move my arm." What a great attitude. I nearly caused an accident today while I was driving - now I am feeling worse. I am not getting into a car till I feel better.

Hell, couldn't even sleep this afternoon - my arm started to hurt so badly I woke up. I'm tired and angry. Especially as how intelorant my parents are. After all I went today, I went when I was sick with the flu, two times I was absolutely nauseous from the pills for my stomach. Each time I went. If got half way decent sleep tonight and someone would take me to the train I would go and sit there (probably not being able to catch much of what the Prof in the front is saying, but heh - I am there and that is probably what counts most).

But I can't - first of all my mom doesn't think I need to be driven to the train station, as I should perfectly well be able to drive that short piece alone. Great, especially that part where I have to use my okay arm for the gear all the time and when I am so mushy from just getting up that I am bound to crash into the next tree. Even if I was even worse she couldn't be bothered to drive me to the doctor.

I honstly hope it gets better, especially the swollen lymphknots are troubeling me, if they don't get better. Or my temperature higher ...

I don't understand. Last time I had vague problems sleeping on that arm for a night. Now this? And I so wanted to not miss a lecture for the entire year!

On Tuesday I finally refreshed my Tetanus vaccination, but yesterday my arm got slightly swollen and today I don't feel so hot. I really like to skip today, but then it's my shortest day and I think I can manage. Worst of all is my arm hurting, but still this slight dizziness isn't too good either.

I guess it's like in "The tombs of Kobol" (Battlestar Galactica). Boomer just recovered from this terrible sickness and is still quite shaky, but there is trouble and reports to Col. Tigh with the rest of the Squadron (minus Starbuck and Apollo of course).

Tigh is like: "Pilot, you can barely stand."
Boomoer replies: "But sir, a viper is flown sitting."
And Boomer knew that this was his key argument.

I figure I'll be okay driving, if I sit a while in the car and then head onto the road, cause walking sure as hell makes me a bit uncomfortable. Oh my dear bed, see you at 15:15 or so.