Mistress Darkness

Oh boy I love this show!

I finally caved in and put the first DVD in ... (I should work on my last term paper first but ...) this show has many flaws but that does not matter because it also has a distinctive charm to it. There is this flair of vampires being out there in secret and that one day you might be the one to stumble into someone's life and find out that he really is something supernatural.

I know it is not real and nothing beautiful like that will ever happen in this boring real, totally non-magical world - but a girl can dream and Moonlight feeds this longing for this rare kind of magic that I have inside of me.

While Moonlight has this "Omg it is horrible to be a vampire ..." in form of Mick's lack of acceptence for himself, he is the only character in the show that feels that way and unlike so many other shows wiht immortal beings, Moonlight does not strictly try to portray immortality in a bad light, like for example, Highlander with "poor me, I am immortal" and Charmed "immortal equals being evil, unloved and/or miserable".

I guess that is also what I loved about Forever Knight. While Nick's attitude was somewhat aggrevating, it also had Lacroix who loves being a vampire and until they fucked up Janette's character in the third season, her as well. Sure, there was this annoying lecturing about "only humans can truly love blabla" eventually vampires were allowed deep emotions as well, even though mostly it all ended tragically.

Moonlight, I just have to admit, is now my favourite vampire show beyond comparism, because vampirism is portrayed just as I dream about it. Not with the rules, the sleeping in freezers and stuff, but the feeling, the possibilities ... vampires are incredibly dangerous there, they can be charming and/or good persons and yet terrifying and deadly, even Mick being the sexist hero in the shining armor and all his reluctance to accept his nature kills without flinching. Or the vampire who kills one of her freshies in a fit. Most importantly vampires are allowed to keep their human feelings, they are dangerous predators and yet they are motivated by the same feelings and thus when you become one you do not turn into a monster, you remain you - just with a strange new appetite you need to control.

I can't believe they cancelled this beautiful show, while cheap porn crap like Tru Blood gets a second season. But I guess the average viewer does not want to dream, they want cheap crap thrown into their faces, so they can stop thinking all together. I guess Moonlight will probably the last of its kind ... and that makes me feel really sad.

I had a rather strange and in a way depressing dream about one of my favourite movies ...

A few strange scenes, I remember walking around in Santa Carla but I think I was one of the good guys from the movie ... most vividly I remember a scene when the Frogs, Sam and my dream I where cornered in a gym hall by all the Boys (who apparantly returned naked from hell and had to borrow weird clothing from the nearest cloth line in some hippie backyard).

Not sure who the character was but I was her, I apparantly knew the vampires and now I was a witch .. (yeah, I must say witch/vampire relationships are my new favourite fanfic theme). I tried to sneak away and ended up having a conversation one on one with Dwayne.

When I woke up I just thought: Man this guy is old right now... I was just 8 when the movie came out, I guess I was just about 11 when I first saw it ... how could I not feel depressed about that dream?

All my through my teenage years I had the hots for those vampires and I still feel that way, but I also weird being physically so much older than the Lost Boys. *sighs*

I guess my age will influence my fanfic writing more and more and how I am able to dream and fantasize about my favourite characters ...

Count Vladislaus Dragulia visited me in my dreams tonight.

My dream self was attending college in a sleepy little coast town in Italy and guess who one of the professors was? At one night I walked home past a cemetary and suddenly he showed up in his long cape. Then a rival female vampire attacked me and he protected me. After walking me home, I apparantly lived with some relatives outside of campus, I asked him in.

He kissed me goodnight on the cheek and before I knew it he was drinking from me. Then I did not see him till the day he had his seminar but always lurked around the cemetary on my way home.

In a switch I suddenly was Dracula and handling a spat with the other female vampire who was extremly jealous and Dracula-Me was pissed at her constantly ruining his games.

Tt was a bit strange and for some reason Heath's Joker also made an appearance, but mostly the dream was about Lacroix. Yeah the one from Forever Knight! If I ever had doubts if I was still a fangirl (after those dreadful exerpts from the third season) the dream swept it all away.

It actually started out rather fugly, with my character looking for a flat and then the women who showed me the flat discovered that a couple of gangsters had overtaken it. I managed to slip into another room unnoticed, while she was brought to the head of those thugs and if you read the first sentence, you know who that was.

Anyone, I escaped through the windows and also some of those guys followed me, I managed to evade them, well at least for now - but more about that later.

Instead, I picked up on another add, household-help with few hours and free living, it also said it involved a pregnant lady, but with my current problems I decided to give it a try. As it turns out, the women did not really want someone to help her with the household, she was looking for someone willing to fullfill her duties as a wife, while she was pregnant and it would endanger the child. Now guess who her husband was *rofl*

( more about the Lacroix part of the dream )

Finally I managed to pay a visit to Tersha! We decided to rent to DVDs, one was Sweeney Todd, which I had looked forward to. However, I was more than midly disappointed. It was horror, the singing was awful, the songs were boring on top of that and apart from one funny moment that got me laughing (when it turned out that he killed his own wife) there was really nothing to it. (Okay, I kind of thought Johnny looked cute in the get up, but that was all)

The second shock was me reading parts of the first twilight novel - wow putting a couple of boring cliches in a book, add vampires and you got a bestseller. Not really encouraging, even my rough plans for my first vampire novel contained less bland characters and back then I was fifteen. But I guess, my feeling that my stories would anyway be too complicated to get published are very substanciated.

Oh well, maybe one of these day I give it a try. Maybe the fantasy story which is basically making fun of cliches and thus there are some cliche characters. Then again the idea is to set these two "wonderful heroes" up and then because they are so typcial and simple minded heroes, they fail miserably and the villains win, because they are not your typcial villains nice enough to just drop dead at the end.

At least the second movie was a bit better, although a bit gruesome, I'm not to fond of movies with serial killers who cut off body parts other than hair ...